好好说再见

我爱过你笑的脸庞
我爱过你心的善良
这些年有你的时光
把我的孤独都照亮

我记得你说过的话(时间留不住一句话)
我记得曾为你疯狂(何时过了年少轻狂)
当情太深而缘太浅(当你离开我的世界)
至少要好好说再见(要怎么好好说再见)

一直以为真爱能直到永远
彼此相爱的每一天都是永远
一直以为我们有同一个明天
你曾是我的世界不完整的世界

如果花谢了会再开
如果错了的还能改
这些年累积的关怀
怎能说不在就不在

感情不该一直受伤(为何爱总是带着伤)
我不愿让你再失望(有期望才会有失望)
当幸福碎成一片片(一颗心碎成一片片)
至少要好好说再见(要怎么好好说再见)

一直以为真爱能直到永远
彼此相爱的每一天都是永远
一直以为我们有同一个明天
你曾是我的世界不完整的世界

相信你会过得更好(我还不想把你忘掉)
别丢弃你无邪的笑(再见面还可以拥抱)

我记得你说过的话(时间留不住一句话)
我记得曾为你疯狂(何时过了年少轻狂)
当爱情不再像从前(你永远是我的从前)
原谅我沉默的再见

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=e7mZjPmgigs

A Decision Making That Unbearable

Today did a selfish decision making, December 13, 2013 I broke up with you. Many people will think “what a pity, why broke up with a fantastic girl?” Our problem was occurred while upon I received a message that I been offer work abroad, despite how you unwilling you still pretend you are happy for me and support me all the way. Absolutely, I am happy that you support and understanding me to fulfilled my dream. But the end you hurt yourself deeply and resistance yourself emoticon. Why? Why you need so kind to me? 

By accidentally, I viewed your Twitter account and I got know all the reasons. I feel so guilty and shamed is because you keep blaming yourself and said yourself is whore, bitch, stupid women etc. Why? As I understanding, LOVE is not going to depreciate your self’s value and to coordinate with your partner. Thereupon, my selfish decision making might be will help both of us release from the painful.          

You always is a myth for me, your existence was warm my life and guide me growth up much. I am appreciate and although my decision is relentlessly and hurt you much but I believe this will only short term and I hope and bless you having happiness everyday. 

I suppose feeling good and release while I voiced broke up, but in contrast, I am felt heartache and feel so sad. I believe this also a while for me. 

   

Two Reality Salespersons

Some days ago, a couple has hanging out at a shopping mall, the funny things was occurred while the couple was paying concentrated on their conversation and crossing the credit card exhibition stall, sudden a credit card sales person have come beside the couple and request the couple stay 5 minutes to listen him on explanation how the credit cards are incredible, fantastic and of sorts benefit… (Below was the dialogue among the couple and salesperson)

Salesperson: Hi, I am from XX bank, do you need to apply a credit card?? Our bank has a promotion of applying a credit card of platinum, then you are entitle to get a 20’inch luggage and discount on somewhere restaurant or shopping mall (hand hold with leaflet).

Couple Mr K & Ms L: (Shaking head and hand & smile to the salesperson)

Salesperson: (Trying to obstruct the couple step forward) C’mon, just give me 5 minutes to explain to you. Do you have using any credit card now? If yes, that is very easy. Just fill up the form and get a copy of ID and everything was done. Upon the matriculated and approval of the credit card, you will get the benefits that offer right now.

Salesperson: This credit card is not necessary to pay the government fee and annual fee. There was so attractive.

Couple Mr K: (Seem so interesting and keep looking at the leaflet that holding by the salesperson) Hmm…

Salesperson: Can I know how much per month you have earning on your salary??

Couple Mr K: I am jobless now.

Salesperson: (Face expression was change) Oops, ok, thank you.

Couple Mr K & Ms L: (Leave from the place)

The couple was starving and goes to restaurant to fill up their stomach. Unexpectedly, after few hours ago the couple was crossing another credit card exhibition stall. Beneath was another ridiculous conversation occurred:-

Salesperson: Hi, I am from XX bank, do you need to apply a credit card?? Our bank has a promotion of applying credit card and you are entitled to get discount on somewhere restaurant or shopping mall (hand hold with leaflet).

Couple Mr K & Ms L: (Shaking head and hand & smile to the salesperson again)

Salesperson: (Trying to obstruct the couple step forward again) C’mon, just give me 5 minutes to explain to you. Do you have using any credit card now? If yes, that is very easy. Just fill up the form and get a copy of ID and everything was done. This is not necessary to pay the government fee and annual fee.

Couple Mr K: We didn’t use credit card…

Salesperson: Argh? You two are student?

Couple Mr K and Ms L: (Nodding head) Yes. [Cheat the salesperson]

Salesperson: (Face expression was change) Ok, thank you.

Upshot: Do you think that above the dialogue were so funny and ridiculous? LOL

Perturbed

Age getting increase means your burdens are also getting heavier. Do you agree with this phrase?

I remembered when I am juvenile, and after the high school prepare step in to the society. I am excited and thinking that I am growing up, I can have my own helluva ideal. My wish is to study abroad, and hope to settle down in oversea after graduated and then I can leave my motherland forever. (This is dementia thinking). Due to financial and no gifted of studying, I opted to studying and working at the same time. It is a very tough jobs to me, in between I really slaving away and hope to forego for the continuously. Finally I resisted 6 years to completing my diploma & degree, it’s obviously edible me very long period (I have took rest for 2 years between). But it is really worth to my endeavor, although the result was not so outstanding. After graduated my degree, I been employed by a MLM company and the superior and boss are very optimistic about to me. Worked three months, they sent me to Center Asia for settle some issues and attending event over there. After that worked till five months, my boss was recommended to send me work abroad be the “International Business Manager”. Whoa, how excited I am… On that moment, I can see my prospects and I do apart from anything else directly accept the offer, because work abroad and live in oversea was my dream. I do appreciated my superior and boss to auxiliary me to fulfill my dreams.

State of affair was resistance almost 1 year plus closed to 2 years, everything not like fabulous that perfect. A lot issues was occurring, and make me felt much fed up and dejected. In this circumstance of interaction, finally company management was approved my resignation and the repatriation. I was happy, I can back to motherland to meet my family, beloved and friends. Ostensible, there is a happy things happened but might be is another hiding problem existing. I had recall back why I so rather to leave from my motherland and my family on that moment? Is because, I wish to get a nook to escape from my family problem and every unpleasant things. For now, I was uncertainly of my cranky thinking, like example: First, I am worried about my emolument, will getting halved drop and no idea whether it could cover all my expenditure or not. Second, must vigorous to get job ASAP to prevent my income shortage. Third, were my major worrying part (family), hoping there are everything was calm and serenity.

The final part was I very appreciated to my beloved. A long distance relationship was kept maintain around 3 months, we are still in good. I wish to thankful her understanding, inclusive, trusting and being my listener when I am going outta on wreaking.

Attitude of Incorrigible

That’s called “wave after wave”, unpleasantness things were intermittent come to me. Within these few months there were a lot of controversies. Along to these few months, finally I also consciousness there are no deuce / perfect in this world. No matter how you effort to get both in perfect, always automatically will have a side was happy and another was sad. Why? What’s going on?

Perhaps I am too fragile, every time when happen this kind of controversies, sure I will bend to inferior thinking. Some words sure will float onto my mind, instance: “Shouldn’t I deserve to get love? Why I get love, and then sure will have another hurt to someone? No matter how there was my family or my friend. Why?” This question is eternal to devastating me. Although I am easy fall to bad thinking, but I am also easy to retracted & explicated and persuade myself in positive thinking. The problem is I always torture myself with my cranky. In spite of there is detrimental, and why I still astray on it? Sarcastically…

Undeniable, I am a scoundrel… Due to my financial situation, I always refuse people’s invitation to travel. But today I being a hypocritical person, I was purchased an air fare to travelling on next year. Façade is frill with frugal but the behind is the squander. What a shameful I have!!! (Despise). I can understand to my friends taunt to me, and only can blame is myself naïve.

A Meaningful Lyrics

Sharing: 

Leave and let me go

You’re not meant for me I know

Carry on carry on 

And I’ll stay strong

Leave and let me go 

I will think of you I know

But carry on carry on 

And I’ll stay strong

Someone else will keep you warm from now on

Someone else will keep you safe from the storm

But I’ll be with you wherever you go

So you will never be alone

I’m going where the wind blows

Going where the lost ones go

I will be with you

I’m losing the loved I found

Crying without a sound

Where have you gone?

I will be with you

You were my fool for love

Sent me from high above

You were the one

I will be with you

I’m going where the wind blows

Going where the lost ones go

Leave and let me go

Don’t look back just let me know

Carry on carry on

You must stay strong

Nothing ever looks the same in the light

Nothing ever seems to quite turn out right

When you realize that you have been loved

You will never be alone

I’m going where the wind blow

Going where the lost ones go

I will be with you

I’m losing the love I found

Crying without a sound

Where have you gone?

I will be with you

You were my fool for love

Sent me from high above

You were the one

I will be with you

I’m going where the wind blows

Going where the lost ones go

Leave and let me go

Baby I can’t come along

Carry on carry on

You must stay strong

Volcano finally Outbreak

Ultimately the volcano was outbreak. Whether you guys remembered the previous blog regarding the project of staff A and staff B? As the story continue, staff B was finally riposte to staff A, the previous story was headway to staff A sent the planning to staff B for peruse. Unexpectedly staff A has blamed + madden staff B not went through the file. If not forgotten, staff A was promise himself accept the things going with the flow and understand the phrase of “everything can’t be insist, and there will not blissful”. At the commencing, staff A was complied his promise not to bother anymore and thought that since he has completed his quests. Who else know, at the meanwhile in this circumstance, staff B gonna to inform staff A that he will started the progress. Staff A was hilarious when heard that staff B mentioned he gonna started the progress, and on this moment staff A has get carried away and totally forgot what he vow before. After few days, staff A was texting to staff B asking the progress, and see whether need help or not. Hard to interpreted, staff B was replied “if you don’t believe me, I also nothing can do”. Suddenly staff A was so frustration when saw the text replied from staff B, in act staff A was not intention to offensive to staff B. But in this circumstance, staff B was firmly believes staff A was the person nitpicks to him and keep blaming on him too. Therefore, the dynamites were flammable and the quarrel is interactive between staff A and staff B. Till the quarrel was fall into a bit outta and acute, staff A decided to evade and wish the conflict will stop.

After the enragement, staff A was feeling not well and migraine, then he going to dose some medicine and taken rest. During the rest taken, something was kept floated onto staff A’s mind and make him can’t fall asleep. Staff A was spook and kept thinking why he going to do such trashy things and after done also no people will appreciate on it. Staff A was confusing about 1 thing that is he only ask the progress and didn’t bring with any offensive intention, but why staff B will senses that is offended? Possibility mutual already bear with “heart sick” and keep dislike other side any action even only a little greeting.

I believe there is no anyone are wishes happened those unpleasantness things, really hope staff A and staff B could truce and pay collaborate to accomplish the project and again built up the good and saturation relationship.