Lonely Christmas

What mean of Christmas?? What the dedication of Christmas??

Christmas is an annual commemoration of the birth of Jesus Christ, it is celebrated generally on December 25 as a religious and cultural holiday by billions of people around the world. A feast central to the Christian liturgical year, it closes the Advent season and initiates the twelve days of Christmastide. Christmas is a civil holiday in many of the world's nations, is celebrated by an increasing number of non-Christians, and is an integral part of the Christmas and holiday season. [Copy from Wikimedia]

As the above mentioned Christmas was a meaningful festival for Christians to celebrate this commemoration of birth of Jesus Christ. Current era, either Christians or non-Christians also treat as a deserving on celebration on this festival, like reunion with friends / families, count down in certain lively area, exchange Christmas gift and etc. How fantastic is it…

From the childhood, I been interesting to western culture and I love and wish to celebrate for those festivals that having in western countries, instance Halloween, thanks giving day, Christmas and New Year. Sometimes I have no idea why I so interesting on this kind of festival??? I am Asian and suppose wholeheartedly into our major Chinese festival like Chinese New Year, Ching Ming festival, dragon boat festival, mid-autumn festival and Winter Solstice. A reason that I was suspected why I am boring to above mentioned Chinese festival, that was might be since the all way I was used to it when I am growing. How the sarcastic to me… A Chinese guy not reciprocated to his religion… (Despise to myself too)

Despite said that, I am craving onto celebrating those western festivals, but in fact, I am not officially enjoyed the mentioned western festivals and environment even thought I am been located in western countries right now. Another shamed that I have… Many peoples are always putting in mouth that jealous me, envy to me, can enjoy and celebrated those happening festival in western countries. But who else’s knew I am lonely on celebrated over here? When every time peoples asking me “how was your celebration on the festival? Sure there were happening on it right?” According to this question, I always shilly-shally on this. (sourish feeling) By the way, this is prep to me…

Come back to Christmas, although I am alone on transited to this festival by yesterday. But I am still happy that my best friends in Mexico here going to celebrated in advance with me on 23 Dec. Because they knew that in the actual day they are going not free. I felt guilty on that day (23 Dec), I been worked OT until 9pm and they are waiting me until the time I am knocking off… Actually I am dejected on my working matter, but I very touching that my best friend did the way to me… I am glad to having “best friend” like you guys. Estamos mejores amigos

Human Life was Short

Human life was short, therefore everything you doing right now or wish to do soon must grab the opportunities to complete it. Avoid in future bearing with the regretful to your life. Nowadays, lots of the illness could wreck human life with easily like heart attack, cancer, melanoma and etc. What the horrendous for that... It is really no any thread when the malady will coming to you or your families or your friends. The prevention always was enough yet on preparation, when the "bad" luck going to fallen on you. You have nowhere to run and need to accept it. But it is doesn't mean your life going to waltz off, you still able to complete or fulfilled your aspiration as you can.

I had heard that one of my best friend, her aunt was going in the last stage of the malady. And how worst going the management of the hospital inform her family that the illness was not improving, please arrange her to discharges from hospital due to the space of the beds in hospital were limited. What a shamed on that... My best friend going to tell me her whole family decide to send her aunt back to hometown to recuperate over there. And this also her aunt last wishes... Anyhow, going to fulfil her wishes will most pleased to her. My friend... I knew you are suffering too on it... Please be strong and you have to take good care of yourself and your family too... I am here to grant you everlasting must happy and blissful.

Trouble

Sometimes you not are going ask for "trouble”, but "trouble" also will find you up... Do you agree with this phrase? When you are craving for the peaceful life, "trouble" always will look up on you... Never let you stay with the tranquil life, and it kept confusing people with cranky. A vulnerable human always been defeated by this kind called "trouble".

An ironic, I am admitted I was pretentious grow up in a healthy and protected situation. Always can't stand with a circumstance of deteriorate and neurotic on those "trouble" things. In the described like a spoiled kid could not stand with an ordeal. Really disgrace on it... But sometimes really irked and weary to co-operate with those peoples bearing with stealth like sordid and tricky. In a creepy was those cheeky scoundrel going to instigating and infusing some viral into management to back stab the victim with a sin. It was dejected... the victim always has to going to find a explanation to resolve this kind of "trouble"... What the f...

What kind of this world?? Where the righteous??? Why the victim is necessary to grinning all the way and must hide / bury his or her real emotion? Is because of surviving into this stratum?? Totally marshmallow and bull shit...

Foremost, the victim won't surrender on these kind matters anymore, and soon get riddance from this hell. Looking forward for that day's coming...

A Feeling of Bafftle

Brimming with a puzzle, why a people's outward was deem as a
approachable, amicable, chatty and etc... But in facts, they is
hypocritical,unscrupulous,affectation, treacherous and indeed a schemer and
rascal. Elusive...

Sometimes an unfruitful mindset keep
on floating in my brain, a scruple always make me insomnia. May
be this called as work phobia. This symptom was began on
September 2011, meanwhile the nightmare also been commenced, within the
said month a lots of the inauspicious things was one by one spreaded onto me. At
first, the things was irritated people is all the moment I
am be surveillance and eavesdropping by someone. The scoundrel was
intention to find out my mistake and trying to back stab on
me. In the sake, is want to dissappear / repulsing me from his
business and might be it business was buried something fabulous factors.
Whatsoever, I only performing my own tasking and never distortion the
truth.

Another issues, was the problem of communication and
co-operation among me and those managers over here. I was always humbling to
express my purpose, in verdict? I am lacking of the communication
(judged by Management), no matter how I am endeavors on my quests
the ultimately everything was going fidget. Sometimes I am not going
to explain more in purpose to dodge on stirring up any
strife. But the end, I have to bear all in silently. I am willing
to do so is caused I heartless on this job anymore and I hope the
transition will going to end soon.